The returning home

Living in France teaches me the value of life. I was born in a family with a good reputation. In Cambodia things were like magic, it was happened naturally which made me felt like it was normal. Actually, because my family treated me special. Yet, I didn’t realize that luck and I always wanted to escape from this old tradition. Moving in France life was completely different, I arrived in the modest conditions which I thought it was just a joke at the first time. Unfortunately, it was the reality. I had to learn to live with my new environment even though I didn’t feel like it was where I should belong. Suddenly, the strict education from my family became a very strong background and made me feel like a giant tree which none of typhoons could destroy. Strong racin had been plugged into the ground until the heart of mother earth, I am so thankful to my family for this strong base.
I had to fight to find myself which I had been lost day by day in France. 7 years of obscurity, I finally got back my voice, my life, my light, my freedom. I became stronger, what is more I became who I really am, my value. I understood ” To recognize the light, you need to live the dark “.
I keep moving on and life keeps surprising me. I was nothing 4 years ago and now I am somebody, I rebuilt my own empire. I discouver amazing life, enjoy it even with less.
Coming back to Cambodia 2017, I am different. I feel love, I am loved and my love is not the same. It is pure, my world becomes clearer; more enjoyable and I spread it to my family. I am treated as a queen even though nothing so fancy. But you know, when you feel like a queen wherever you go, you are still one.

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The retired of my negative emotion

Other day while having dinner with my daughter, she talked to me about a new film of Will Smith, Collateral Beauty. I watched the trailer, it was kind of make sense. We write lettres to the Univers but never to our emotions. Well, what came up in my head this morning when I woke up was I wanted to let my negative emotions go on their retirements. Wow, this would be amazing that we could free ourselves from the bad shadows. We’ve been living inside our body, sometimes we lived with sadness, anger, hate, disappointed, guilt etc… To talk about it becomes so difficult, because of the fear of the outside environments’ reflexion. Therefore, the negative emotions grow older, heavier, bigger day by day interior until one day we might feel lost, Lost in ourselves. The same stories keep repeating, strange questions keep coming to ourselves ” why me? ” ” what have I done wrong? ” ” no, not again!”.

Going to the therapist is the best way, at the same times, therapists just the people who tell you where is the key to get out. We are our master, we master our own destiny.

So I will start writing a letter each day to my emotions, so that they could leave on their retirement happily ;-).

I would like to see how will it work for me, it’s my first experiment to myself.